Please eat and take care of yourself. I'm so extremely sorry for both you and Sarah.
Try not to make the drinking problem a habit - it will only consume you.
I'm deeply sorry for you both, Sarah and ImagineAll. I hope you can stay strong and move on. Remember there are people here you can always talk to. When I had my breakdown I felt really blessed to have received so much support from fellow SPers.
Today was spent zoning my mind out because I'm not mentally prepared for tomorrow.
Had KFC for dinner, then went out and celebrated national pancake day with a friend. Was good times.
It's not that I don't want to eat. I just can't. I ate on Thursday and threw it up within ten minutes. I attempted to eat a burrito last night and threw it all up midway through eating it. I'm not one for addictions these days. I can and do quit doing things on a dime. It's just a lot more bearable coming home to being alone and having a healthy buzz going so I don't just crawl under my bedsheets and cry myself to sleep night after night.
I've always appreciated SP for it's tight knit group of people. Transparency isn't exactly my biggest thing in real life, and I tend to just bottle it up where no one knows anything is wrong with me until I'm just brokendown. So it always helps to come here and let things out a bit and know I'm not being judged I guess.
I don't know what this is right now, and I certainly don't know how to react. She just wants her space and given that we're both in college wants to not be binded to a relationship though she swears she still wants to be with me, just right now she wants to do her own thing. She said she wants to get back together after summer, and I'm just like, "pineapple that."
Sorry ImagineAll. At least we're all in a single sinking boat, right. Spooning time!
I went and got my hair cut to cheer myself up. Looked like pineappleing pomegranate when it was done and I was so mad but I tipped anyway. Then I got home and washed/styled it a bit more and it looks spectacular. Pretty happy.
Someone ate all the pepperoni off the leftover pizza...but I don't remember if it was me. Eh, I'll be mad about it anyways.
Oh, and these skittles will do wonders for my sickne :[ Can't stop eatingggg
Sad :(
I am going to make chocolate chip cookies and banana bread for everyone having a bad week :[[[
Parents are going out for their 27th anni this weekend. My sister is up in NY for some modeling audition thing till march 8th, so whole house is going to be for myself. Going out tonight or tomorrow with some friends for some preppin.
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