Oh yeah, I'm going to Dallas today for a week. I have to move into my new place on the first but my dad doesn't care, he just wants to go see his mom. Rescheduled with landlord for the 6th, which is the day after we come back.
The issue is actually:
1) I don't have decent paychecks for my current job, thinking the possibility of the marriage to be last longer. My paycheck is around RM 800-1300, depending on projects and incentives.
2) This is might be related with my country's culture, but dowry, wedding costs is much hell if including wedding clothes, make up for wedding ceremony for bride, catering and everything related with wedding. Like my family want to maintain the our race's tradition as Malays. -facepalm- I argued this point with my family before I went to sleep. Here's the summary of things happened:
Mom: We want you to follow the tradition, RM 10k for the dowry.
Haru: What the-
Dad: Catering isnt a problem to me.
Haru: Mom, dad, stop it. I haven't decide any-
Grandma: Go and find your future wife.
Haru: Hello, I'm not even ready for marriage, I haven't learned fully to bear those big responsibility even after marriage. If I want to marry someone, I want to make the wedding will be simple, without being tied to tradition culture of Malay. Just a very, simple wedding ceremony with the way of a modest Muslim does and a small thanksgiving feast for villagers in my village. And, I don't have decent paychecks for my job now. Then all of you pushing this on me. -facepalm-
3) I'm still not ready for marriage and not having enough knowledge regarding responsibility post-marriage. I've seen enough issues regarding a grown adult will ditch his/her parents to welfare house, even in front of my eyes. I don't want to be ungrateful child to my parents. Just marriage only I can think worst possible issues, from raising a child and future problems to issues with parents with both sides of party, living costs, shelter, food. I want to raise my child with the Islam's method because only my grandmother, my mother and me care about daily religion practices.
Sapta: if my grandma want to give RM 20K to me, probably I will say [Use the money to do Hajj in Mecca for your sake] to her.
And thanks Sapta.
I had plenty of time to attend a college football game, but I never went because... well, I don't know really.
Today, I went to the first game of the season, and it was a blast. Football is one hell of a sport.
I'm super tired from all that cheering and standing, so I must sleep.
I don't know why but there's so many thoughts in my head and so many things I have to bother about... I feel as though I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon ;_;
miiiight have gotten drunk for the first time last night
stomach is a-ok but not sure if I will do that very often
Unpineappleingbelieveable...
Family Reunion was interesting. Though, I don't like people talking about how I look behind my back. That and I hated when every time I got out of my chair, there's always someone that takes it. They took my water/sodas with the chair as well or they would move the chair and place the drinks/food where it last was. Do people not understand how annoying that is????
I thought my fraternity would get things straight since there's a new exec board. Nope.jpg. Some people are still lazy as pineapple and now's NOT the time to be screwing around. I missed our 1st meeting because of my family reunion and our VP is already frustrated with some of them. I'm on board on putting them on probation or removing said people from positions. This is ridiculous.
I didn't even get the meeting notes. When I asked what happened, I was told to "look at the notes". ARRRGHHHQHERHQEBUHQTBQRTUBIQBTQRBT
This year just got started and we're already in trouble.
Day 3 of my 5 days straight of work (and some days that have school). I'm still alive. It's my first real part-time job. So far, so good.![]()
Had a sports day outing with the band today...
well, that's all I can remember. We were playing sham battle where I got nailed in the head twice to the point of unconsciousness.
...yea.
I met my person of interest tonight, he looks so much like Malik from 1D. I've determined he's perfect boyfriend material, gonna try and make this happen if it goes the right way. Fingers crossed~
I can never work full-time in retail /)_(\ its so tiring, especially since the store im working at has one of the highest traffic for a non-megastore(even more than some megastores).
Ugh and i hate working my butt off during the holidays, i should be lazing around all day everyday T_T
Seriously considering dentistry as a career... So Ive started studying for the DAT. I'm sick of coming home tired as pineapple.
I do find me time by reading novels though thankfully. I want more books to read though...
I've been talking to my parents more about their life experiences. It's a big deal for me because I've never been close to my parents so hearing them out made me admire them a little bit more.
Baking double chocolate chip cookies.
Not a bad day :3
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