How was your day?

[KhainiWest]

I've lost my appetite. My enthusiasm. I don't think I've really been happy in two weeks.

Things with her hit rock bottom today. Although I think now I've learned from all the mistakes I've made and have started to improve a little. I can tell there's still a chance. I just can't make any more mistakes.

I normally hate when people post depressing crap but I guess now I understand. I feel so horrible I've stopped caring about pretty much everything, including what people think of me.

I've tried doing things to distract me. I was up from 7-3 outside in this goddam heat, then I went to a neighbors party. I had my first full (mixed?) alcoholic drink. I don't even care about my health anymore and I hate feeling like this. The distractions barely did anything.

Just a few more days and I think I'll know for sure whether I should give up with her.
I had so many plans for this summer.. I was so happy and I had the motivation to do anything. Now it's impossible to go a full day without crying like a baby.

Sorry for being such a downer, southperry. I just needed to write down how I feel. I tried a diary but that didn't really help

Hey Bryan, I out of anyone can sympathize with you, my girlfriend dumped me in a pretty terrible and illogical way recently, I'll spare the details to keep this from getting into a "WHOS GOT IT WORSE' crap. But when it gets down to it, at the very bottom line, you've made some great accomplishments. I'm going to take a guess and say she wasn't behind them. You're who you are without her, and you have a long time ahead of you, college is going to give you many similar opportunities. Don't throw everything away, the faster you grow your confidence back, the faster you can meet someone else without them being afraid of being a rebound.

tldr;

BUCK UP papayaGOT, SCIENCE AND MATH AND pomegranate ARE SEXY RIGHT NOW, THANK BIG BANG THEORY.

[Colress]

Went to cousin's house as usual. Once again I exchanged what could have been a boring day with dad for a volatile day with annoying brats of cousins.
I have been doing that ever since they moved here. I need to find a safer haven away from the monster before he melts my brain into something that's no longer functional for making friends, finding a job, whatever.

[Sn1perJohnE]

So since I got accepted into VIU, I was able to drop the summer ceramics class I had intended to take at the local community college here (since VIU doesn't require tons of fine art bullpomegranate classes, it's completely unnecessary).

I'll be heading down to the office on Monday to get my refund, and I've used said money to book a flight to see the boyfriend before he comes here.
So I'll be in Victoria for a month and a half 8) yay

Ceramics is so much fun though D:



My day started by taking one friend to urgent care because she started feeling horrible while she was at work. Thankfully she was feeling a lot better but they couldnt really find out what was wrong (we think she hasnt been eating much lately).

Then I took another friend out to do some running around, where she needed to get a check from her bank to pay rent, and we got some food and bought some stuff. Afterwards I hung around with her and the friend I took to urgent care at their apartment.

For dinner I went out with another for sushi, where a couple of the employees started doing the Gangnam Style dance while the song was playing on their sound system. Was an awesome sight to behold.

Finally, I had fun hooking my laptop to my TV and making the screens run one ontop of the other, and using tumblr and having a giant ass dashboard. Just for the hell of it.

[icephoenix21]

Ceramics is so much fun though D:

But... this would be so much more fun:

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OT: My sister's wedding is on Friday, and with me leaving a week from Tuesday, I've got a lot of running around to do.

[maplefreak26]

I wish my brother was already in college because he is really pineappleing irritating.

He peaches about every thing that I ask him to do, when it comes to laundry, doing errands for me, etc. He then says I don't do anything for him. Oh, I'm sorry, who's the one that makes lunch /breakfast almost every time when you're not hanging out with your friends? Who's the one that helps you grab things because your leg supposedly hurts? Who's the one that helps you hide secrets from my parents? Who's the one that gives money when you need it? Who's the one that lets you be 3 months late for a payment that you owed me? Who's the one that bought you a game out of my own pockets that was set away for my graphics card fund because you really really really wanted it? Who's the one that (when buying food) buys and extra one for you so you can have it.

I don't have to do any of that, takes me for granted and peaches and complains when he doesn't get it his way.

Last week? He bought his ten billionth pair of earphones because he broke it while in the gym. My dad refused to buy it and he threw a tantrum (he's 17) in the middle of Target because my dad didn't buy those stupid pink Sony earphones. My dad gave in of course but it's still really annoying to see him get things the way he wants.

THEN HE COMPLAINS ABOUT HOW I GET THINGS I WANT. At least I actually use my money that I have accumulated to get the things that I want and not use other people's money to get the things he wants.

He always frustrates me and always puts me into a bad mood every time he does this for the rest of the day.

./end angry dome like post

[AcidAutumn]

Work today was cool. Busy sunday as usual, but there was this one girl who came in with her dad that seemed to find me attractive, from the way she was acting. It was a nice self-esteem boost, since my self-esteem is at about the size of an ant.

And of course I didn't talk to her, because my confidence is at an all-time low as well.

So it's a k day.

[Eliul]

Officially since December and unofficially since August~September ish.
I didn't go around telling people 'cause I saw it as a personal thing I didn't need to broadcast (which apparently she didn't like).

Talked with a friend and I'm feeling kind of better. Not really though since I can't sleep. I guess I'm starting to be ok with it.

Just sucks not having anyone to talk to about personal stuff now. She was the only one that ever cared or listened. She was the only one I felt comfortable with. And to make things worse someone who I thought was a friend has "been there when I wasn't" and now she has feelings for him. When I expressed my concerns (jealousy) a few months ago she assured me he would never be a problem.

I'm just venting at this point. idk it's weird so many emotions ugh I'll just stay single for the rest of my life

Yo, it's summer. The sundresses are out. Plenty of fish in the aqua road.

[Moonlapse]

Got Excel 2007: Inside and Out and currently reading through it. Figured knowing excel would be a handy thing to have on my resume. Oh, and I got another acceptance. :)

[Razmos]

So after a disaster of a year at university I decided this course wasn't for me, and I'm looking for a new course to start from scratch next year. I can't really find anything though, there were quite a few that interested me that I simply don't have the grades for (like 95% had completely unrealistic expectations of grades)

I am also considering the possibility of studying in America. I would absolutely love to do it, but i'm finding the process confusing and I'm unsure on the expenses. Sigh, I've got a lot of looking to do.

[Sardines]

I am also considering the possibility of studying in America. I would absolutely love to do it, but i'm finding the process confusing and I'm unsure on the expenses.

Welcome to America, we can educate you very well on confusion and expenses. Don't worry, they are both taught in the same course.

[Razmos]

Welcome to America, we can educate you very well on confusion and expenses. Don't worry, they are both taught in the same course.

Yes, I've heard that America is very knowledgeable of such things.

[Mazz]

It's 2am and I'm laying in bed and I've decided that I really want a banjo

I've been pretty down the past few days... Girl friend (note not girlfriend) is back home for the summer and we've been hanging out and stuff but I can't get over the fact that I like her way more than she likes me.
Also watched iron man (first one, 7/10, start was painful to watch and I kind of wanted the bad guy to win because Robert Downey jr is irritating)

[KhainiWest]

It's 2am and I'm laying in bed and I've decided that I really want a banjo

I've been pretty down the past few days... Girl friend (note not girlfriend) is back home for the summer and we've been hanging out and stuff but I can't get over the fact that I like her way more than she likes me.
Also watched iron man (first one, 7/10, start was painful to watch and I kind of wanted the bad guy to win because Robert Downey jr is irritating)

DOWN VOTE TO HELL

[AcidAutumn]

So I blew 45k nx on teapots. Not one empress or fafnir.

Wanted to seppuku.

[Maryse]

It was decent enough.
I found a cut of meat that I have mastered with only 3 tries cooking it, comes outperfect every time. Yay for pork chops.
I finally successfully scrolled an Empress hat for myself
Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion was on sale, so I decided to get it since I want to experience another Elder Scroll game and not only Skyrim. I mean for $6.79 (66% off), that's a good price.

[Mandalay]

My dog just died about an hour ago and I'm really gonna miss her especially when I wake up tomorrow. She's my first pet since my childhood. She passed away in my father's arms in the car on the way to the clinic.

I know she had health problems (congestive heart failure) but I didn't think today would be the day because I was playing with her fine this morning. My mother even took pictures of her this morning. She was so lively even at the age of 12.

I didn't even get to say goodbye to her when she was living. The last thing I did to her was shout in her ear to please not die. I only got to kiss her goodbye in that one room before you give the body to the clinic for cremation.


I miss my dog already. I'd do anything to see her living again. Bye Cutie, I love you a lot :(

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I'd like to believe that she went peacefully.

Edit: I can't shake the feeling. :( I haven't cried so hard in so long. Her presence in the house is everywhere: all her favorite foods in our fridge, her last serving of dog food, her squeaky toy she loved so much, her water bowl, her leash, her sweater, and the last tufts of fur she shed on our living room couch and all over my clothes.

She had so many cute tidbits and habits that I'm never gonna see again.

I feel dumb crying over a dog but I really loved that dog. My house feels pretty empty now.

[Fiel]

Decided I'm going to help people. There are about 15 marines in Afghanistan that want Optimum Nutrition whey and BCAAs. I'm going to help 'em out and include a letter. This is going to be fun!

[Nion]

My dog just died about an hour ago and I'm really gonna miss her especially when I wake up tomorrow. She's my first pet since my childhood. She passed away in my father's arms in the car on the way to the clinic.

I know she had health problems (congestive heart failure) but I didn't think today would be the day because I was playing with her fine this morning. My mother even took pictures of her this morning. She was so lively even at the age of 12.

I didn't even get to say goodbye to her when she was living. The last thing I did to her was shout in her ear to please not die. I only got to kiss her goodbye in that one room before you give the body to the clinic for cremation.


I miss my dog already. I'd do anything to see her living again. Bye Cutie, I love you a lot :(

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I'd like to believe that she went peacefully.

I'm sorry to hear and my condolences to your beloved friend.

[Eliul]

Decided I'm going to help people. There are about 15 marines in Afghanistan that want Optimum Nutrition whey and BCAAs. I'm going to help 'em out and include a letter. This is going to be fun!

Semper Fidelis chinchilla.

[Netto]

Woooooooooooooooo....I have been in red-hot searing rage since Saturday. It doesn't look like it's going to let up any time soon.