>7th/18th In Clarinet Section
>Replaces broken pep Clarinet for Concert.
>Gets "Rank 1"
>Best Day Ever.
>7th/18th In Clarinet Section
>Replaces broken pep Clarinet for Concert.
>Gets "Rank 1"
>Best Day Ever.
TLDR: I only see you as a friend. We were just fooling around as friends.
pineapple it. pineapple this. Why did I think that this time would be any different? Nothing changes.
This is one of the million reasons why I can't wait to graduate and finally move to New York. College gays, ESPECIALLY here in Madison, WI, are so unbelievably commitment-phobic, with their main reasons being they're not 100% out, or they're not 100% comfortable with themselves yet, or they're just so stressed and busy from school that thinking of a relationship on top of that when they're not confident about themselves....the list goes on and on.
GAYS, GROW SOME BALLS. And stop fooling around with people you only see as friends, because it just pineapples everyone in the head.
He said he's been "Hurt by past relationships" and wants to "go it alone" for a while. There is no way in hell I would have hurt him, and he even said i'm nothing like the boyfriends he's had before. So I find this whole thing silly. But of course he's made his feelings perfectly clear, and I should accept them. There's no point in me fighting for this. Sigh.
Got done with my only class for the day, a 55-minute Art Survey/history class at 8:55.
I walked to the art supply store to pick up some micron pens and a black prismacolor marker for a project, and the store doesn't open until 9:30.
Sooo I decided that would be a perfect opportunity to grab a cappuccino at the cafe across the street- and here I am, sitting with my Mac book and sipping a cappuccino and not going to the art store, yet :D
Today shall be a good day, it's peacefully overcast and slightly sprinkling.
Ate like a fatty today. My teacher's birthday party. Cake fight. Now feel like a dirty fat boy and I'm going to take a shower.
My granddad died about half an hour ago. I forgot to say goodbye to him before I left for University...
This is probably the worst day I've had. But all of my problems today seem pretty petty right now, compared to what's happened.
> Randomly thought about my ex last night before sleeping.
> Met a good-looking guy in the library
> He happens to be a second year med school student.
> Nice convo.
> Exchanged names.
> Same name as my ex.
Well, pineapple. Same ethnicity too. The man upstairs has a sense of humor.
My entire day was spent being sick with a pretty bad cough while studying for my midterm tomorrow.
Is it sad that the highlight of my day was finding out that Nexon released skill updates for bowmasters?
Well today, my professor asked the class if there was a video with equal production value from Kanye's music video, Runaway.
Guess what one person said?
Spoiler
Oh I forgot to tell about my own day.
So today I had my midterm on Evolution. It was twelve questions and we had fifty minutes to complete. Logically that means spending less than 5 minutes per question. When these are short answer conceptual questions where you have to think of concepts and how they are executed, it was literally impossible to finish within a reasonable amount of time with the proper amount of effort put in. People raged on the course discussion forum so much it makes me feel better after doing so poorly. Let's hope the professor does some bellcurve or something.
Oh and the dude beside me said LIVE LONG AND PROSPER before starting his exam.![]()
Well I gave in and actually texted my Ex. He answered. I feel like crying. I miss him so much. Yesterday I was with my friend at Watson's and she saw the like double-sided sticky thing some Asian people put on their eyes to give the double eye lid and I was explaining to her what it was. Then I remembered how I used to look at him in the eyes and play with them and tell him he was Foreign then making my eyes smaller and telling him I was Asian. I remember looking at him in the eyes in the morning... Love is the worse thing you can expose yourself to.
...Well, my best friend is crushing over the same person I'm pursuing...and with that, I want this week to end now. I can just smell the discord in the air...oh well, two more days can't hurt anyone. (I've considered on ditching, but I know I'm gonna regret that very quickly...)
I also got around and bought myself my own PS3, in spite I've been using my friends to play all my imports, and he wants his PS3 back because I've been hogging it for quite some time, to the point it's been collecting dust.
Seriously tho, she's cute. And I rarely say that.
My mother wants me to go back to Canada to complete my education before going to Taiwan. I told her that I want to study in Taiwan if possible.(Meeting my conditions which are a scholarship and maybe a dorm room.) She does not believe in Taiwanese education because my Taiwanese friend told her that Taiwanese diplomas are less important than Canadian ones. I love my mother and for her I wish that I cannot find an scholarship, but for myself I wish that I can find a scholarship there and continue my education and my Mandarin learning. She told me that I have already lost one year of education when I had my depression and that I'm in the process of losing a second year because I'm only learning Mandarin in China and not getting a degree. I understand what she is saying, but telling me these things now is very unsettling to hear. I only have two plans. Either going to study in Taiwan if possible or go back to Canada and study there. I am lost too right now because I can't make applications for anything yet since I'm staying in China the whole year. I'm planning to go school hunting when I go back to Taiwan for Spring Festival. I don't want to make my mother worry. She thought that I wanted to go back to Taiwan because I want to find love there but I told her that love will find me. My ex is going to Australia anyway. I don't know where I stand after this year in China. It worries me. I also recently learned that my dad had a heart attack a while ago but because of his diabetes he did not feel it, he is going to have to take some tests to know when it actually happened. I am so worried. I don't know what is going with life any more.
Never felt so alone in my life.
My best friend is avoiding me, so for the first time in a month I am alone, just me and my thoughts. And considering the events of yesterday i'm in a really bad place right now.
He chose the absolute worst time to abandon me. I understand that things were slightly awkward, but how does he think this will help me? or help us in redefining our relationship with each other?
I don't know if there is anything I can say. He has been ignoring my texts and messages, and conveniently goes offline on facebook whenever I go online. Sadly enough, i've pretty much given up on trying because I don't want to piss him off and push him away further. I need my friends right now.
Living on my own sucks..
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