2010-01-10, 01:36 AM
With all the topic I've been making lately make me see i might be a little if not too much anti social, but this made me think more...
A girl i know, a friend of mine, not exactly best friends or anything, said why i don't invite her over to my house so we can play wii, i only said no, because, i don't know... i pulled some lame "My brother is an pimento and i wouldn't like you guys being here along with him because it might be annoying..." but when i though about it, i couldn't really explain it... yeah my brother is annoying but thats not the only reason...
I just feel weird when i think about it, invite someone over, introduce them to my parents and brother, have to play or do stuff while my younger brother is around, my parents might ask questions (even though i know they wont but i still feel like they will >_<) ugh i don't know really, maybe I'm WAY too insecure of myself even though i try not to... but hell... for example i began drinking alcohol like 2 years ago (I'm almost 21 now) and i still feel embarrassed when i tell my parents i do drink, even though they don't care, even my dad offers me drinks and I'm like no thanks, why, because i feel like that...
I just don't know... I'm too insecure now that i realize it, maybe not antisocial... argh now I'm confused... now its just hard to put my though together, yeah I'm insecure of myself, but HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THAT TO SOMEONE... hell, i bet that girl was like "wtp is wrong with you, are we friends or what", i can't just explain this feeling of... guilt maybe?... shame? i don't know...
A girl i know, a friend of mine, not exactly best friends or anything, said why i don't invite her over to my house so we can play wii, i only said no, because, i don't know... i pulled some lame "My brother is an pimento and i wouldn't like you guys being here along with him because it might be annoying..." but when i though about it, i couldn't really explain it... yeah my brother is annoying but thats not the only reason...
I just feel weird when i think about it, invite someone over, introduce them to my parents and brother, have to play or do stuff while my younger brother is around, my parents might ask questions (even though i know they wont but i still feel like they will >_<) ugh i don't know really, maybe I'm WAY too insecure of myself even though i try not to... but hell... for example i began drinking alcohol like 2 years ago (I'm almost 21 now) and i still feel embarrassed when i tell my parents i do drink, even though they don't care, even my dad offers me drinks and I'm like no thanks, why, because i feel like that...
I just don't know... I'm too insecure now that i realize it, maybe not antisocial... argh now I'm confused... now its just hard to put my though together, yeah I'm insecure of myself, but HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THAT TO SOMEONE... hell, i bet that girl was like "wtp is wrong with you, are we friends or what", i can't just explain this feeling of... guilt maybe?... shame? i don't know...