2013-06-01, 09:45 PM
Marksman Bryan Wrote:I've lost my appetite. My enthusiasm. I don't think I've really been happy in two weeks.
Things with her hit rock bottom today. Although I think now I've learned from all the mistakes I've made and have started to improve a little. I can tell there's still a chance. I just can't make any more mistakes.
I normally hate when people post depressing crap but I guess now I understand. I feel so horrible I've stopped caring about pretty much everything, including what people think of me.
I've tried doing things to distract me. I was up from 7-3 outside in this goddam heat, then I went to a neighbors party. I had my first full (mixed?) alcoholic drink. I don't even care about my health anymore and I hate feeling like this. The distractions barely did anything.
Just a few more days and I think I'll know for sure whether I should give up with her.
I had so many plans for this summer.. I was so happy and I had the motivation to do anything. Now it's impossible to go a full day without crying like a baby.
Sorry for being such a downer, southperry. I just needed to write down how I feel. I tried a diary but that didn't really help
Hey Bryan, I out of anyone can sympathize with you, my girlfriend dumped me in a pretty terrible and illogical way recently, I'll spare the details to keep this from getting into a "WHOS GOT IT WORSE' crap. But when it gets down to it, at the very bottom line, you've made some great accomplishments. I'm going to take a guess and say she wasn't behind them. You're who you are without her, and you have a long time ahead of you, college is going to give you many similar opportunities. Don't throw everything away, the faster you grow your confidence back, the faster you can meet someone else without them being afraid of being a rebound.
tldr;
BUCK UP papaya, SCIENCE AND MATH AND pomegranate ARE SEXY RIGHT NOW, THANK BIG BANG THEORY.