May be quitting, desperately need help

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did u say her nx make her look like man.

did u say her nx make her look like man.

I dont find anything in this situation very amusing, and I don't appreciate you making light of this. I can barely think without a massive headache I'm so fucking upset and you're sitting here making fun of me. Great. Thanks.

Are you willing to give us her IGN? We can always /find her in our spare time.

I started playing Maple with my best friend of 13 years. Then he decided to not be friends anymore, said a bunch of horrible pomegranate to me, (such as "everyone treats you with kiddy gloves") and he stole all my mesos, which I gached with 500 dollars. He thinks he is smarter than me, though he flunked out of three colleges including a community college, and I graduated Georgetown after getting in as a transfer (15% admission rate as I recall.) The guy is a fucking piece of human $hit.

If you're able to apologize and admit you're wrong, and REALLY promising not to do it again, quickly after it happened, you should be able to remedy the situation. The guy I am talking about "is never wrong" about anything, so I would rather have no friends for the rest of my life than talk to him again. Admit you're wrong and your friend will probably think differently.

[COLOR="Teal"]Try not to do anything really rash and in the spur of the moment. I know you hurt her really badly, but it'll be really hard for her to talk to you again. Since she was one of your best friends, I bet she'll talk to you, just give her some time. I don't know what you did, but if you're this upset over this, I bet she'll be able to talk to you and forgive you for it.

So take a little break and don't worry about it for now. Try to calm down and think and act rationally instead of emotion. I really hope you can get a hold of her, and good luck. [/COLOR]

Listen man:

Just chill out and not let emotions overtake you. Hey, I was in your shoes in the past when my mind simply ran out of control and said things that I shouldn't say, and it took time to repair friendships that I screwed over thanks to this.

If you really need to, just take a temporary break. Try talking it over to your friend, and let her know that you are regretful of your actions.

Are you willing to give us her IGN? We can always /find her in our spare time.

I can't do that, because some of the preceding events have caused her to put her main into hiding. More than likely it will be a mule or a nib character of hers that actually hears about my reaction to everything, so I was just hoping to mass-spread the word.

I dont find anything in this situation very amusing, and I don't appreciate you making light of this. I can barely think without a massive headache I'm so pineappleing upset and you're sitting here making fun of me. Great. Thanks.

I'm so sorry for how I reacted to you Findings. I figured out that I have some very...strange...psychological issues tonight that I have begun working on correcting. One of which being wild mood swings and endless streams of thought when extremely stressed. I took it out unfairly on you, when you were just trying to lighten the conversation. Please forgive me, I 'd up.

ahhhhhh (late to the max) you cant quit, Bello wont be the same *

also, how long/much did it take to get your arclaive spear? im freaking 40/300 for the bow still X_X

Just how ed up I was last night/this morning (not drunk, just...I don't know, I broke down mentally)...
Before you read this (it's 2 hrs worth of convo, so pretty long), here is some backstory

Tea is an ex maple gf
Still a good friend, and she was worried when I freaked when I hurt Seera. It wasn't anything intentionally meant to hurt Seera, I just became so focused on getting revenge on someone who was harassing her (nobody, but NOBODY, messes with the people I care about) that I forgot to take her feelings into account and probably made things worse for her. She got upset and logged off, and I snapped mentally at the thought that I had hurt her.
~ Tea ~ goodnight tea
12/4/2008 1:12:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ sorry I flipped
12/4/2008 1:12:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't believe I just acted like that
12/4/2008 1:12:27 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon hun
12/4/2008 1:12:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ That's exactly what I'm upset about and I do it all over again
12/4/2008 1:12:45 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon hey
12/4/2008 1:12:48 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon dont worry
12/4/2008 1:13:04 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i just dont want u to quit... cuz i kno u will nvr talk to me again
12/4/2008 1:13:05 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon =(
12/4/2008 1:13:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon id miss u
12/4/2008 1:13:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I talk to people on msn all the time
12/4/2008 1:13:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that dont play maple
12/4/2008 1:13:28 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ or play in other servs
12/4/2008 1:13:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Ive just been so frickin busy
12/4/2008 1:13:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ with school
12/4/2008 1:13:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that i havent even had time to call my mother
12/4/2008 1:13:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ or help my sister with her essays
12/4/2008 1:14:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ or anything
12/4/2008 1:14:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i gtg
12/4/2008 1:14:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im about to snap again
12/4/2008 1:14:15 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ok hun
12/4/2008 1:14:18 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i <3 u
12/4/2008 1:14:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont know why I cant pineappleing control how my thoughts are
12/4/2008 1:14:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I hate it
12/4/2008 1:14:38 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon just relax
12/4/2008 1:14:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I hate not being rational and in control
12/4/2008 1:14:45 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon take some deep breaths
12/4/2008 1:14:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im always pineappleing in control of my thoughts
12/4/2008 1:14:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ always
12/4/2008 1:15:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to the point that I can end up being a cold, manipulative son of a peach
12/4/2008 1:15:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so why the pineapple cant I now
12/4/2008 1:15:26 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon hun
12/4/2008 1:15:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ God damn it
12/4/2008 1:15:33 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon cuz stress
12/4/2008 1:15:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i pineappleing hate this
12/4/2008 1:15:43 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon
12/4/2008 1:15:53 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon breath
12/4/2008 1:15:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant
12/4/2008 1:16:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant even think
12/4/2008 1:16:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ how can i breathe
12/4/2008 1:16:16 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple
12/4/2008 1:16:20 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon close ur eyes and breath in ur nose hold it and out ur mouth
12/4/2008 1:16:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple pineapple pineapple pineapple pineapple
12/4/2008 1:16:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant even stop pineappleing shaking
12/4/2008 1:16:50 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ what the hell is pineappleing wrong with me
12/4/2008 1:16:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ goddam it
12/4/2008 1:17:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant stop crying
12/4/2008 1:17:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant stop shaking
12/4/2008 1:17:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ i cant think
12/4/2008 1:17:11 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon hun
12/4/2008 1:17:13 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im not in control
12/4/2008 1:17:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and i have no idea what to pineappleing do
12/4/2008 1:17:26 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur having a nervious breakdown
12/4/2008 1:17:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to fix things
12/4/2008 1:17:33 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur stressed
12/4/2008 1:17:38 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and upset
12/4/2008 1:17:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ knowing that doesnt help me stop though
12/4/2008 1:18:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple pineapple pineapple
12/4/2008 1:18:10 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon just try hun
12/4/2008 1:18:19 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon breath slowly
12/4/2008 1:18:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon dont think
12/4/2008 1:18:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ sorry
12/4/2008 1:18:30 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon its ok
12/4/2008 1:18:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I bit my damn thumb
12/4/2008 1:18:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it worked
12/4/2008 1:18:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Sorry about that
12/4/2008 1:19:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont know what the pineapple that was
12/4/2008 1:19:19 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon ur ok
12/4/2008 1:19:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont ever act like that
12/4/2008 1:19:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im always calm, rational, and helpful
12/4/2008 1:19:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ now Im the exact opposite
12/4/2008 1:19:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and making pineappleing problems for everyone
12/4/2008 1:19:52 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon....
12/4/2008 1:19:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and yet I still can't stop fixing typos before I send messages
12/4/2008 1:20:02 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon stop thinking
12/4/2008 1:20:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and checking for grammar mistakes
12/4/2008 1:20:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and thinking of how people will react
12/4/2008 1:20:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ what pineappleing people
12/4/2008 1:20:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ its just you
12/4/2008 1:20:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ goddam it
12/4/2008 1:20:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't stop being so pineappleing cold and manipulative
12/4/2008 1:20:50 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that I plan every single pineappleing message
12/4/2008 1:20:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ every god damned post
12/4/2008 1:21:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ every thought every word every feeling
12/4/2008 1:21:06 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon
12/4/2008 1:21:21 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon can u stop thinking?
12/4/2008 1:21:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I act so pineappleing helpful and relaxed and calm to give myself the illusion of control
12/4/2008 1:21:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant now
12/4/2008 1:21:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ The truth is that im just a sadistic cold manipulative pimento
12/4/2008 1:22:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I get some kind of weird kick out of mind pineappleing people
12/4/2008 1:22:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I probably ruined at least 1 friendship today because of that
12/4/2008 1:22:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and now im in the process of pineappleing another up
12/4/2008 1:22:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and yet im happy for once
12/4/2008 1:22:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im not pineappleing planning my words
12/4/2008 1:22:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im just typing
12/4/2008 1:22:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ they just go
12/4/2008 1:22:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ out
12/4/2008 1:22:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ out
12/4/2008 1:22:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ out
12/4/2008 1:22:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ out
12/4/2008 1:23:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ out
12/4/2008 1:23:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ goddam it
12/4/2008 1:23:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple, had to bite my damn thumb again
12/4/2008 1:23:21 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon... can i be honest with you
12/4/2008 1:23:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Sorry
12/4/2008 1:23:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ yes, please do
12/4/2008 1:23:50 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i think u have bi polar
12/4/2008 1:24:10 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Wouldnt it have shown sometime before now though?
12/4/2008 1:24:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ why right now
12/4/2008 1:24:22 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon no
12/4/2008 1:24:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ just because im stressed
12/4/2008 1:24:30 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon because ur really stressed
12/4/2008 1:24:34 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon mhm
12/4/2008 1:24:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Over one goddamn friend that I can
12/4/2008 1:24:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple
12/4/2008 1:24:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ glad I stopped that one
12/4/2008 1:24:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ before I finished it
12/4/2008 1:24:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I did NOT mean that
12/4/2008 1:25:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple, Im going back to planning my words
12/4/2008 1:25:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ It really is stressful, you know?
12/4/2008 1:25:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u need medicine
12/4/2008 1:25:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to see people look up to an image that you created for yourself
12/4/2008 1:25:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that you know isn't 100% true
12/4/2008 1:26:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I stopped shaking
12/4/2008 1:26:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and stopped crying
12/4/2008 1:26:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ my head doesnt hurt as much
12/4/2008 1:26:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it still does, but not as much
12/4/2008 1:26:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I flipped the pineapple out there, didn't I O.o
12/4/2008 1:26:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pomegranate, I'm so sorry
12/4/2008 1:27:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Room mate got masted
12/4/2008 1:27:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ (Captains Mast, aka Non Judicial Punishment)
12/4/2008 1:27:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ he got caught drinking underage at a party
12/4/2008 1:27:33 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon
12/4/2008 1:27:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ 3 others went down with him
12/4/2008 1:27:37 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u told me
12/4/2008 1:27:40 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Oh, right
12/4/2008 1:27:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol
12/4/2008 1:27:43 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon hun
12/4/2008 1:27:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Anyways, mast was today
12/4/2008 1:27:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ he got moved to restriction barracks
12/4/2008 1:27:57 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur not gunna like this
12/4/2008 1:27:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so did the other 3
12/4/2008 1:28:05 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon but u need to see a doc
12/4/2008 1:28:10 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ whole class is freaking out about it
12/4/2008 1:28:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ esp so close to graduation
12/4/2008 1:28:17 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and not an option
12/4/2008 1:28:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't
12/4/2008 1:28:26 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon IDC brandon
12/4/2008 1:28:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Bye bye clearance if I do
12/4/2008 1:28:30 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u NEED to
12/4/2008 1:28:42 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon this is dangerous
12/4/2008 1:28:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I think it was just because I suppress so much
12/4/2008 1:28:50 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u will only get worse
12/4/2008 1:29:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I promise you that if I do, I'll say something
12/4/2008 1:29:11 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ if this ever happens again, I will
12/4/2008 1:29:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ The whole time, I had a half-sense of control
12/4/2008 1:29:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it was really weird
12/4/2008 1:29:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not like black out
12/4/2008 1:29:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not like someone else
12/4/2008 1:29:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not like difference personality
12/4/2008 1:29:53 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon this isnt the first time u been like this
12/4/2008 1:29:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Yes it is
12/4/2008 1:30:03 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon no
12/4/2008 1:30:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ ?
12/4/2008 1:30:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont remember ever being like this before
12/4/2008 1:30:28 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon when u had to deal with ur rl gf
12/4/2008 1:30:34 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and where talking to me about it
12/4/2008 1:30:42 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u got rly upset over nothing
12/4/2008 1:31:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ one sec - grabbing a blanket and pillow
12/4/2008 1:32:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I really dont know how much of that was me just messing with you
12/4/2008 1:32:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ This is going to sound odd
12/4/2008 1:33:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but the thing about messing with people's minds really is true
12/4/2008 1:33:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I don't know why
12/4/2008 1:33:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but I love trying to figure out how people think
12/4/2008 1:33:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to the point that I do it without realizing it
12/4/2008 1:33:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'm more worried that I have...
12/4/2008 1:33:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple
12/4/2008 1:33:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ cant remember
12/4/2008 1:34:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ what it was called
12/4/2008 1:34:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ where you have issues with normal thinking but what is normally hard to do comes natural/easy
12/4/2008 1:34:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't memorize worth a damn
12/4/2008 1:34:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but I grasp concepts and thoughts really well
12/4/2008 1:35:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Which is opposite of almost everyone I know
12/4/2008 1:35:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I took AP classes because i couldn't survive in on-level
12/4/2008 1:35:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ on-level was so much more mem. focused that I couldn't do well
12/4/2008 1:35:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I got labeled as "bored by lack of challenge"
12/4/2008 1:35:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and put in advanced
12/4/2008 1:36:01 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon well either way brandon theres something mentaly wrong with u
12/4/2008 1:36:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and all of a sudden did amazing
12/4/2008 1:36:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Well duh lol
12/4/2008 1:36:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I've known that for almost forever
12/4/2008 1:36:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I act weird as hell
12/4/2008 1:36:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ say pomegranate that makes no sense (but not crazily, just randomly)
12/4/2008 1:36:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and have next to no real life social skills
12/4/2008 1:37:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and yet I can craft a persona online that has all those qualities
12/4/2008 1:37:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that I want to have in real life conversations
12/4/2008 1:37:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Tea...
12/4/2008 1:37:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im scaring myself
12/4/2008 1:37:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Or maybe im not
12/4/2008 1:37:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ idk
12/4/2008 1:37:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Ive never fully tried to explain to anyone
12/4/2008 1:37:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ my pineappleed up way of thinking
12/4/2008 1:38:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ maybe thats why I get pineappleed up when im stressed
12/4/2008 1:38:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont ever try to talk to anyone
12/4/2008 1:38:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ about things that concern me
12/4/2008 1:38:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ my manipulative nature scares the hell out of me
12/4/2008 1:38:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so I bury it with helpfulness and doing anything I can for people that I care about
12/4/2008 1:39:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ because I don't ever want them to see that in me
12/4/2008 1:39:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and abanadon me
12/4/2008 1:39:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I guess
12/4/2008 1:39:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Or maybe Im just disgusted in that
12/4/2008 1:39:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but can't let go of it either
12/4/2008 1:39:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so I stuff it in a dark corner
12/4/2008 1:39:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and hope it doesnt show when I dont want it to
12/4/2008 1:39:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ And pineappleing Jameasson today
12/4/2008 1:39:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ really started making me use it
12/4/2008 1:40:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I really had to rely on that to get what i wanted out of him
12/4/2008 1:40:05 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon u need help
12/4/2008 1:40:10 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im sorry tea
12/4/2008 1:40:20 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon stop apologizing
12/4/2008 1:40:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ you sound like Im scaring you
12/4/2008 1:40:27 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon no ur not
12/4/2008 1:40:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ or concerning you
12/4/2008 1:40:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Weird thing is this is how I talk when Im drunk
12/4/2008 1:40:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ O.o
12/4/2008 1:40:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but Im not O.o
12/4/2008 1:41:02 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i just kno the signs brandon
12/4/2008 1:41:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and if u dont get help for yourself it will end up forced on you without choice
12/4/2008 1:41:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Eh, if I do fully snap some day, at least I can finally understand
12/4/2008 1:41:50 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and maybe confront in myself
12/4/2008 1:41:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ the cause
12/4/2008 1:42:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I could still tell what i was doing
12/4/2008 1:42:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and saying
12/4/2008 1:42:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and could still think, but conscious thought that took effort gave me a headache
12/4/2008 1:42:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so I may be able to figure out whats wrong
12/4/2008 1:42:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and fix it
12/4/2008 1:42:57 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon its not like u gotta be out of it to be bi polar or something
12/4/2008 1:43:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ if I can see it in my actions
12/4/2008 1:43:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon its ur mood swings and racing thoughts
12/4/2008 1:43:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont think I ever shifted moods
12/4/2008 1:43:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ The racing thoughts yes
12/4/2008 1:43:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but the moods felt...planned
12/4/2008 1:43:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ idk
12/4/2008 1:43:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even the crying didnt feel real
12/4/2008 1:43:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Like even though you couldnt see me
12/4/2008 1:44:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I was still forcing crying
12/4/2008 1:44:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to mess with you
12/4/2008 1:44:11 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know, it's pineappleed up
12/4/2008 1:44:16 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol ur not messing with me tho
12/4/2008 1:44:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I hope im not
12/4/2008 1:44:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im back to where, if I am, I cant tell
12/4/2008 1:44:36 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur an online friend nothing more
12/4/2008 1:45:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Lol, and potential future pineapplebuddy
12/4/2008 1:45:10 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon uh no
12/4/2008 1:45:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ xD
12/4/2008 1:45:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ kidding
12/4/2008 1:45:50 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know we don't have anymore what we had a little while back
12/4/2008 1:46:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I was just trying to lighten the mood xD
12/4/2008 1:46:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't ever take more than so much serious conversation
12/4/2008 1:46:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ before I have to say something stupid
12/4/2008 1:46:38 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon we dont have anything becauseu pineapple around too much
12/4/2008 1:46:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Do what?
12/4/2008 1:47:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Like mess with people?
12/4/2008 1:47:20 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u try to
12/4/2008 1:47:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and ur a perv
12/4/2008 1:47:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know that
12/4/2008 1:47:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I hate that
12/4/2008 1:48:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Sorry
12/4/2008 1:48:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I wouldn't have told you all that if i knew it would mess with our friendship
12/4/2008 1:49:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont think Ill quit maple
12/4/2008 1:49:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ But i think I need to start over friend-wise
12/4/2008 1:49:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even my protege...
12/4/2008 1:49:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont know what all I may have said or done that wasn't how I really felt
12/4/2008 1:49:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ And I feel wrong
12/4/2008 1:49:52 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u cant just start over
12/4/2008 1:50:03 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u are wrong because u kno u need help
12/4/2008 1:50:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and wont get it
12/4/2008 1:50:13 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I need to apologize to my friends
12/4/2008 1:50:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ soon as the SC is over
12/4/2008 1:50:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and to you
12/4/2008 1:50:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ especially
12/4/2008 1:50:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ For helping me out while I acted like that
12/4/2008 1:50:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I don't think I need help
12/4/2008 1:50:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I didn't do anything to anyone
12/4/2008 1:51:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ For the most part I've actually helped a lot of people
12/4/2008 1:51:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and been a positive influence
12/4/2008 1:51:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even if it was a false influence
12/4/2008 1:51:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it still has the same effect
12/4/2008 1:52:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Actually
12/4/2008 1:52:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I may need to avoid the internet
12/4/2008 1:52:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it seems to fuel everything I hate about myself
12/4/2008 1:52:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon how are u a positive influence to anyone brandon?
12/4/2008 1:52:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I spend unhealthy amounts of time on it
12/4/2008 1:53:04 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u said it urself u try ur hardest to pineapple with ppl
12/4/2008 1:53:10 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u ment to hurt seera
12/4/2008 1:53:13 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ No
12/4/2008 1:53:14 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and u kno it
12/4/2008 1:53:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I really didnt
12/4/2008 1:53:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I wanted to hurt Jameasson
12/4/2008 1:53:21 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon just to see how she would react
12/4/2008 1:53:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not Seera
12/4/2008 1:53:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I let the want to hurt Jameasson take over so much
12/4/2008 1:53:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that I neglected everything else
12/4/2008 1:53:50 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon then her reaction gives u something to cry about
12/4/2008 1:54:26 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u kno seera is one of the most emo girls in maple
12/4/2008 1:54:31 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ie an easy target
12/4/2008 1:54:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont have a thing for easy targets
12/4/2008 1:54:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont mess with people
12/4/2008 1:54:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that already have some instability
12/4/2008 1:55:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I do it, like I said, to find out how they think
12/4/2008 1:55:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ People that are openly emotional show that without messing with them
12/4/2008 1:55:40 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that's why I was spending so much time with her lately
12/4/2008 1:55:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont mess with her
12/4/2008 1:55:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I have nothing pushing me to
12/4/2008 1:56:16 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I think I may have a second personality O.o
12/4/2008 1:56:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Nothing Im saying tonight sounds like me
12/4/2008 1:56:38 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i dont think u do
12/4/2008 1:56:48 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon i think ur sick of hiding who u are
12/4/2008 1:57:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ No, I am sick of dealing with it on my own
12/4/2008 1:57:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I need my friends to know that I do that
12/4/2008 1:57:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ So that I CANT do it to my friends
12/4/2008 1:57:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Because I dont want to lose them
12/4/2008 1:57:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ they're all I have
12/4/2008 1:58:13 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and think
12/4/2008 1:58:22 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon how many ppl will ever trust u again?
12/4/2008 1:58:28 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon maybe 1 or 2
12/4/2008 1:58:46 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon how many ppl will still be ur friend either way....
12/4/2008 1:58:55 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur gunna lose some and u kno it
12/4/2008 1:59:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont even really mess with people like you're suggesting
12/4/2008 1:59:24 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u try to test ppl
12/4/2008 1:59:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ mostly it is just to make myself seem a little better
12/4/2008 1:59:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ no, I dont
12/4/2008 1:59:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I love knowing how people think, but I wouldnt mess with their negative emotions
12/4/2008 1:59:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ like make them angry
12/4/2008 1:59:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ or sad
12/4/2008 2:00:04 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u kno thats a lie
12/4/2008 2:00:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ No, it isnt
12/4/2008 2:00:13 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ of all the things I've said tonight
12/4/2008 2:00:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that I can promise you isnt
12/4/2008 2:00:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ ist no
12/4/2008 2:00:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not
12/4/2008 2:00:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant stand seeing people hurt
12/4/2008 2:00:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ especially not those that im close to
12/4/2008 2:01:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ That part of me is true
12/4/2008 2:01:27 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon not from what ive seen brandon
12/4/2008 2:02:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ From one time being extremely stressed and half the words coming out of my mouth not making sense?
12/4/2008 2:02:39 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon think about y u think i rly broke up with u
12/4/2008 2:02:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ From having 5am to 10pm workdays studying and then staying up til midnight to have at least some free time to myself
12/4/2008 2:03:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to my roommate and 3 other classmates getting masted and punished severely for something I was almost a part of
12/4/2008 2:03:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to not seeing my family in MONTHS
12/4/2008 2:03:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to not even having the time to help my little sister with her homework
12/4/2008 2:03:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im her big brother for crying out loud
12/4/2008 2:03:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im supposed to be there for her
12/4/2008 2:03:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and i cant even help her
12/4/2008 2:04:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ because i dont have the time
12/4/2008 2:04:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ do you know how that feels?
12/4/2008 2:04:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to let down your little sister?
12/4/2008 2:04:19 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon and if u remember that was what u wanted
12/4/2008 2:04:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it sucks
12/4/2008 2:04:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant stand it
12/4/2008 2:04:33 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u got what u wanted and now u regret parts of it
12/4/2008 2:04:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ What?
12/4/2008 2:04:55 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u said b4 u would give anything for knowledge
12/4/2008 2:05:00 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u gave ur family
12/4/2008 2:05:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Your right
12/4/2008 2:05:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I did say that
12/4/2008 2:05:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and i thought it was true at the time
12/4/2008 2:05:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ k?
12/4/2008 2:05:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ So I was wrong, there are some things that I can't give up completely
12/4/2008 2:06:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ shoot me
12/4/2008 2:06:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ people make mistakes
12/4/2008 2:06:07 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon but its to late to fix it now
12/4/2008 2:06:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ No, it isn't
12/4/2008 2:06:20 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon im sure other ppl tried to warn u
12/4/2008 2:06:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I graduate in 1 week
12/4/2008 2:06:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and go home for christmas
12/4/2008 2:06:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ on the 19th
12/4/2008 2:06:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and visit my grandparents on the 21st
12/4/2008 2:06:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ my laptop isn't even leaving Virginia
12/4/2008 2:07:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ all im bringing back with me are boot camp stories and clothes
12/4/2008 2:07:19 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u rly think that short time will be enough?
12/4/2008 2:07:23 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon honestly brandon
12/4/2008 2:07:28 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ No, but it will help
12/4/2008 2:07:29 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u kno it wont be
12/4/2008 2:07:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it will remind me that I do have a family that is there for me
12/4/2008 2:07:49 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u kno everything will be different
12/4/2008 2:07:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even if I cant always be with them
12/4/2008 2:07:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ when I want to
12/4/2008 2:08:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Now whose pineappleing with who?
12/4/2008 2:08:17 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon im telling u the facts
12/4/2008 2:08:27 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon im being honest
12/4/2008 2:08:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I spend god knows how long just streaming thoughts as they come
12/4/2008 2:08:33 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ no filter
12/4/2008 2:08:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ no ntohing
12/4/2008 2:08:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and some of them atre crazy
12/4/2008 2:08:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and some true
12/4/2008 2:08:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and ever since i stopped
12/4/2008 2:09:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ youve been gettin more and mroe hostile
12/4/2008 2:09:23 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon im trying to get thru to u brandon
12/4/2008 2:09:28 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u dont listen
12/4/2008 2:09:44 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur thick headed and believe what u want
12/4/2008 2:09:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ You tell me I need help, and that my friends wont trust me
12/4/2008 2:09:58 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ppl have to pound it into ur head for u to realize
12/4/2008 2:10:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ How many, honestly, do you think
12/4/2008 2:10:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ would trust, ever, someone who went to a psych for a major problem?
12/4/2008 2:10:25 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even if it wasnt really there
12/4/2008 2:10:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ God knows the Navy wont
12/4/2008 2:10:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ And once the Navy doesnt trust someone
12/4/2008 2:10:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ even something as low as McDonalds wont
12/4/2008 2:10:53 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur friends... ur real friends.... would be there
12/4/2008 2:11:18 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ur real friends would be happy for you knowing u stood up and got yourself help
12/4/2008 2:11:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Then I'll fight it for 6 years
12/4/2008 2:11:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and get help when im done
12/4/2008 2:11:51 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ In the meantime
12/4/2008 2:11:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ if it gets worse
12/4/2008 2:11:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ the Navy will make me get help
12/4/2008 2:11:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ either way
12/4/2008 2:12:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon yea but think of it this way
12/4/2008 2:12:17 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon forced help u look like a loony
12/4/2008 2:12:30 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon dont let it get to that point brandon
12/4/2008 2:12:52 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon if u think u can controll it.... try
12/4/2008 2:13:01 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon but dont let them make u get help
12/4/2008 2:13:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Then fine
12/4/2008 2:13:10 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u do it for yourself b4 they do it
12/4/2008 2:13:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'll work on controlling it
12/4/2008 2:13:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ not it
12/4/2008 2:13:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Give it a name
12/4/2008 2:13:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Identities can be supressed far more easily
12/4/2008 2:13:52 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ than anonymous, shapeless...things
12/4/2008 2:14:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Wait
12/4/2008 2:14:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ no
12/4/2008 2:14:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ then there's the danger
12/4/2008 2:14:11 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ of it becoming an identity
12/4/2008 2:14:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ of its own
12/4/2008 2:14:17 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple
12/4/2008 2:14:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Tea
12/4/2008 2:15:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im sorry I flipped out
12/4/2008 2:15:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and im sorry I pushed all my real and non existant emotional and mental problems on you
12/4/2008 2:15:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ But I told you, I could still think and rationalize while i lost control
12/4/2008 2:15:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I did NOT do anything to hurt anyone
12/4/2008 2:16:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I did NOT purposely create a situation to look like a victim
12/4/2008 2:16:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I DO NOT, HAVE NOT, and WILL NOT EVER mess with someone I carea bout
12/4/2008 2:17:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I got to the condition I was in tonight because of the stress I was under and my hatred of Jameasson
12/4/2008 2:17:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ He hurt Seera, and I became so bent on revenge that I hurt her as well
12/4/2008 2:17:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I hate how everything turned out
12/4/2008 2:18:07 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon u need to remember
12/4/2008 2:18:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but I learned a lot about how the one person that really matters thinks
12/4/2008 2:18:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I think, at the very least, I can use that to keep myself
12/4/2008 2:18:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ from every acting like that again
12/4/2008 2:18:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ If not make me a better person in general
12/4/2008 2:18:49 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon what u make ppl think of u....will cause alot of ppl to judge
12/4/2008 2:19:03 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon just try to make it good
12/4/2008 2:19:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont care what other people think of me anymore
12/4/2008 2:19:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ So long as I can keep myself fooled
12/4/2008 2:19:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Everything else will fall into place
12/4/2008 2:19:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Ive done it before
12/4/2008 2:19:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ a few times
12/4/2008 2:20:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Ive managed to psych myself into a more relaxed, normal personality
12/4/2008 2:20:17 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ The more I practice that, the better I should get
12/4/2008 2:20:34 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon
12/4/2008 2:20:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'll deal with my proverbial demons when it won't affect so much in my life
12/4/2008 2:20:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I wont have that added stress factor of my career holding me back
12/4/2008 2:20:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ from fully confronting whatever is wrong
12/4/2008 2:21:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Yes Tea?
12/4/2008 2:21:55 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u need to take a break from everyone for a bit id say
12/4/2008 2:22:06 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon work on self meditation
12/4/2008 2:22:16 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon reduce ur stress lvls
12/4/2008 2:22:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I think that's why my room-mate got masted
12/4/2008 2:22:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so I dont have to deal with him for a month
12/4/2008 2:22:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I have all that time
12/4/2008 2:22:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to relax
12/4/2008 2:22:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ unwind
12/4/2008 2:22:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and get rid of whatever it is
12/4/2008 2:22:53 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon take some time from the comp too
12/4/2008 2:22:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that caused me to act like I did tonight
12/4/2008 2:22:59 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon email seera
12/4/2008 2:23:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant
12/4/2008 2:23:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont have her email
12/4/2008 2:23:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ that was why I was so upset to begin with
12/4/2008 2:23:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I was so afraid that she would quit without me ever getting to at least apologize
12/4/2008 2:23:39 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon she wont
12/4/2008 2:23:44 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon she always does that
12/4/2008 2:23:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know, but I take that seriously
12/4/2008 2:23:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ always
12/4/2008 2:23:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ from anyone
12/4/2008 2:24:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ just like everyone took it seriously for me tonight
12/4/2008 2:24:54 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Well
12/4/2008 2:25:00 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know you cant trust me now
12/4/2008 2:25:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ And i dont blame you
12/4/2008 2:25:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'd give anything for tonight to have never happened
12/4/2008 2:25:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I pineappleed up, and neglected the feelings of a close friend
12/4/2008 2:25:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and
12/4/2008 2:25:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ beyond that
12/4/2008 2:25:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ destroyed the trust another had in me
12/4/2008 2:26:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I yelled at even more people
12/4/2008 2:26:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon brandon... relax
12/4/2008 2:26:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I...
12/4/2008 2:26:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ well, there's once I beat it
12/4/2008 2:27:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I closed my eyes
12/4/2008 2:27:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ my laptop keyboard is so dam tiny
12/4/2008 2:27:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant remember all the keys
12/4/2008 2:27:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im so used to my comp at school
12/4/2008 2:27:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ wb
12/4/2008 2:27:58 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon ty
12/4/2008 2:27:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ so closing my eyes kept me from being able to type
12/4/2008 2:28:07 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol
12/4/2008 2:28:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ stupid, I know
12/4/2008 2:28:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but it worked O.o
12/4/2008 2:28:58 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSqzRMNw5fc
12/4/2008 2:29:02 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ To be honest, I feel better and more in control after tonight
12/4/2008 2:29:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ than I have in a long time
12/4/2008 2:29:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I dont want to mess with people
12/4/2008 2:29:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ pineapple that
12/4/2008 2:29:28 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ thats like leeching
12/4/2008 2:29:35 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ its getting results without earning them
12/4/2008 2:29:49 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon well, i think if u feel u can do it
12/4/2008 2:29:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'll earn trust, love, pride
12/4/2008 2:29:54 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon after ur break
12/4/2008 2:30:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I want to try with no break
12/4/2008 2:30:11 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon come forward to your ppl u think are tru friends
12/4/2008 2:30:15 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I should be fine if I monitor myself closely
12/4/2008 2:30:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Weirdly though, I notice the absence of
12/4/2008 2:30:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ wanting to mess with people
12/4/2008 2:30:50 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Like
12/4/2008 2:31:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I guess the equivalent is not feeling thirsty
12/4/2008 2:31:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ after drinking
12/4/2008 2:31:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ If you've been thirsty for a long ass time
12/4/2008 2:31:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ you tend to drown it out
12/4/2008 2:31:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ you still feel it
12/4/2008 2:31:37 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but you dont notice
12/4/2008 2:31:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and then you take a drink and...whoah
12/4/2008 2:31:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ "I didn't realize how thirsty I was until I drank that"
12/4/2008 2:32:43 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I didn't realize truly, or acknowledge anyway, my love of the thinking process and manipulation until I didn't have it
12/4/2008 2:32:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Tea
12/4/2008 2:32:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I really hope it doesn't come back
12/4/2008 2:33:06 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ It's nice to be happy
12/4/2008 2:33:22 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol
12/4/2008 2:34:13 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ (I've come to the conclusion above after reading the convo starting way back at like midnight or whenever it was)
12/4/2008 2:34:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ It's really weird to read
12/4/2008 2:34:30 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Because I remember thinking it
12/4/2008 2:34:41 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I remember typing it
12/4/2008 2:34:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but I dont remember seeing it
12/4/2008 2:34:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it all blurred together
12/4/2008 2:35:19 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Oooh
12/4/2008 2:35:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know
12/4/2008 2:35:25 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'll call it "The potato"
12/4/2008 2:35:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol
12/4/2008 2:35:40 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ What harm can a potato do if it takes over as an identity
12/4/2008 2:35:42 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ ?
12/4/2008 2:35:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ None!
12/4/2008 2:35:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol
12/4/2008 2:35:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ People will just say "oh look, it's spud"
12/4/2008 2:35:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol
12/4/2008 2:36:08 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon it can grow eyes >=O
12/4/2008 2:36:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I could use new eyes
12/4/2008 2:36:23 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ mine suck
12/4/2008 2:36:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ 20/200
12/4/2008 2:36:28 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ f3
12/4/2008 2:36:38 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ they are a pretty blue though
12/4/2008 2:36:47 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ if only the damned things worked right
12/4/2008 2:36:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ hey
12/4/2008 2:36:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know what this is
12/4/2008 2:36:57 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon blue/gray
12/4/2008 2:37:00 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol
12/4/2008 2:37:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ it's a damned ploy to keep me up til 6
12/4/2008 2:37:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ without me losing a game
12/4/2008 2:37:10 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ f3
12/4/2008 2:37:15 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon huh?
12/4/2008 2:37:17 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ you sneaky devil
12/4/2008 2:37:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ *wags finger*
12/4/2008 2:37:42 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon o.o
12/4/2008 2:38:12 AM You have invited ~ Tea ~ to start Reversi. Please wait for a response or Cancel (Alt+Q) the pending invitation.
12/4/2008 2:38:20 AM ~ Tea ~ has declined your invitation to start Reversi.
12/4/2008 2:38:23 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon o.o
12/4/2008 2:38:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ F3
12/4/2008 2:38:28 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Fine
12/4/2008 2:38:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I'll go to bed now then
12/4/2008 2:38:40 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~
12/4/2008 2:38:43 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon yea u need rest
12/4/2008 2:38:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Nah
12/4/2008 2:38:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ im fine now
12/4/2008 2:39:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Although it's depressing to have someone not trust you anymore
12/4/2008 2:39:58 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon all it means is u have to truely earn trust
12/4/2008 2:40:03 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know
12/4/2008 2:40:05 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ which is good
12/4/2008 2:40:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ But it takes so damn long f3
12/4/2008 2:40:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ To lose it so fast
12/4/2008 2:40:59 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ To my credit, there are people I have never messed with
12/4/2008 2:41:26 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ MrDismember - my ex Guild Leader (SevenStars) - 3 years ago I didnt even know psychology existed
12/4/2008 2:41:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ much less care
12/4/2008 2:41:45 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ ShuzumeKeiko - first maple GF, pineappleing peach...
12/4/2008 2:41:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol
12/4/2008 2:42:07 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ She used to stuff flaming weasels in my pants O.o
12/4/2008 2:42:25 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon o.o
12/4/2008 2:42:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ She "slept" around
12/4/2008 2:42:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ a lot
12/4/2008 2:42:55 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ MiniZane -
12/4/2008 2:43:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ taught me how to be independent and not cling to an abusive relationship
12/4/2008 2:43:18 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ 2nd maple GF
12/4/2008 2:43:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ 2nd major guild leader
12/4/2008 2:43:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and still close friend
12/4/2008 2:43:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ (also a pot head lol)
12/4/2008 2:43:45 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol
12/4/2008 2:44:14 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can't be sure if I've messed with you, or tried to, to be honest
12/4/2008 2:44:25 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I really do think you're cute
12/4/2008 2:44:39 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I do respect a lot your compassion for animals
12/4/2008 2:44:59 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon lol
12/4/2008 2:45:09 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ And for the life of me I can't figure out why you think that you're fat
12/4/2008 2:45:12 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ O.o
12/4/2008 2:45:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Or w/e word it was that you used
12/4/2008 2:45:46 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ to generally imply "not desirably skinny"
12/4/2008 2:45:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ idk if it was as extreme as "fat"
12/4/2008 2:45:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I cant remember
12/4/2008 2:46:08 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Thats another thing, I have a very odd memory
12/4/2008 2:46:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I can remember old tv commercials for states i havent been in in 10 years
12/4/2008 2:46:34 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ but I cant remember something from a few weeks/months ago lol
12/4/2008 2:46:44 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Curse you musical advertising
12/4/2008 2:46:48 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ anyways
12/4/2008 2:46:57 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I never messed with Seera, as i said before
12/4/2008 2:47:22 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I just can't stand seeing her upset
12/4/2008 2:47:49 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and I never messed with my BL/protege aside from hiding my manipulative nature from them
12/4/2008 2:48:11 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ *French fries Potato*
12/4/2008 2:48:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Im gonna get a pet monkey named Potato
12/4/2008 2:48:27 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ and spank him whenever I do something wrong lol
12/4/2008 2:48:56 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ "Sorry I stole $5 from you, I need to go spank my monkey now f3"
12/4/2008 2:49:01 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ *nudge*
12/4/2008 2:51:07 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon o.o
12/4/2008 2:51:48 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon u mean stroke ur banana
12/4/2008 2:51:53 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Haha
12/4/2008 2:52:17 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Tea...can you ever forgive me for how I acted tonight?
12/4/2008 2:52:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ Last night...
12/4/2008 2:52:21 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ this morning
12/4/2008 2:52:24 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ w/e ...
12/4/2008 2:54:44 AM ~ Tea ~ Brandon yea, but u still have to rebuild my trust
12/4/2008 2:54:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I know
12/4/2008 2:55:58 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I only trust myself right now because mentally feel different than before all this
12/4/2008 2:56:04 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ *because I
12/4/2008 2:56:10 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ lol wtp @ my typos tonight
12/4/2008 3:05:29 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ wow, it's 3am
12/4/2008 3:05:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ I should go to sleep
12/4/2008 3:05:36 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ is maple up yet?
12/4/2008 3:28:20 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ night (morning) tea
12/4/2008 3:28:31 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ ty for attempting patience with Potato and I
12/4/2008 3:33:32 AM Brandon ~ Tea ~ *potato and me

That log is rather hard to read and keep up with.. then again, me and my pure PADK gf types 'normal' on IM and on MS, so I'm a bit biased, f1. Anyways, on-topic, I hope things goes well for the both of you and your friendship(s). =)