Originally Posted by
Doxinator
He's not really the one to sleep around, considering that well, he doesn't do that. Nor do I. My immediate reaction should be just to...just no. But I love him far too much. I don't want to get my hopes up, I really do want it to work, I do; but if his heart isn't in it then there's not anything he can really do about it. I can see this two weeks as going a few different ways; either he'll come to his senses and realizes that he misses me, or I'll come to my senses and break up with him. Part of me wants to wait the full two weeks, but the other part wants to see what happens in a week. I'm sure his family will ask him questions. He said he would combat that with "He's working a lot", but...Still. I dunno.
I want to just consider this over and done with. I want to just start the band-aid process now. Just, get it all over with. If I consider us broken up already, and he doesn't want to break up in two weeks, that'll be good, but then MY heart won't be in it...
And in other news, I'm finding it incredibly hard to pass the time. What do people normally do on a Saturday night? Hopefully my intense work schedule next week and the week after will keep me occupied. :/ And apparently it isn't a complete "no communication" break. It's a "play by ear". Aka we can text each other whenever we want. I don't think I'll initiate anything, though. As much as it'll kill me, I'll let him do the texting first. And if I get stupid one word texts, I just won't text him back. Just. Ugh. We were fine just a week ago...I still am failing to understand what happened. :/
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