Originally Posted by
IsaacGS
Wasn't really planning to do this now, but I guess it's as good a time as any...
There are a combination of factors at work that led to this decision. Several months ago my old laptop at last kicked the bucket. It made it difficult for me to do the kinds of things I needed to do for SP. I couldn't really extract anymore. Wasn't a lot of time to be on for a while. Eventually I found other things to fill my time. Pretty soon, I was spending less and less time around here. The content of the patches wasn't even interesting. So much worthless stuff coming out in both GMS and KMST... it's pretty obvious there was not going to be any content that would hold my interest for almost a year. So... I just didn't really follow it anymore.
Then there's the constant drama. Almost every month, without fail, something new and horrible cropped up that we'd have to deal with. It was really starting to weigh on me after a year of this. People I never did anything to were causing trouble for reasons I couldn't fathom. It's pretty much impossible to please everyone, as i'm sure we all realize, but it's especially trying when people can't comprehend the full reasoning that had to go into the decisions, and they can't ever really know. I gotta say if there's one thing I learned from SP, it's a big respect for people in actual leadership positions where they have to deal with much worse every day. It's no wonder presidents tend to go gray in those 4 years. By the end it was getting to the point where I would dread seeing a PM in my inbox because it almost certainly meant that a new stressor had appeared. Things probably shouldn't have gotten to me as much as they did, but there's not a lot I could do about it. It's just how I am.
Another thing is that I changed colleges in this time as well, and have to build up social relationships from scratch. Haven't had much luck with that yet, but it's also because I haven't been trying. In a lot of ways I had been avoiding it, but now I realize that. I hadn't been happy with the way things were in my life for... quite a while now. The only way to remedy that is to make big changes. It seemed to me that the first step was to close the old chapter for good, and put my full attentions towards the future.
lastly, a pretty drastic increase in the difficulty of my classes as of late has dominated my attention. Kinda took on more than I should have this semester. It's at the point where I must get started with my major and the initial workload is high. I have so many classes packed into the middle of the week that they all blend together into one long day. Combined with some of the other personal issues that have cropped up since the start of the year, it's only made things worse.
So, when Fiel and I talked about it, the time seemed right. I need to go my own way and lay this aside. Everyone's gotta do it sometime. It's been rough sometimes, but it's also been a lot of fun with you guys. I don't want to go through and list people by name, it doesn't seem right; Too many people to do that for anyway, but you all know who you are. I won't disappear immediately, but it won't be long.
So long everyone!
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