BlueRuin
2011-03-06, 02:59 PM
Shades of Rain
Saving rain
come to cleanse me
pour my soul
away from me
Happy rain
smile upon me
drops of sunshine
fill my eyes
Sad rain
full of sorrow
hiding pain
between the drops
Angry rain
screams and howls
fighting back
to help you along
Empty rain
hollow lies
nothing left
to quench within
All are welcome
necessary twist
temporary daydream
new beginnings.
Wide Asleep
Murdered memories
Sleeping at the bottom
Of a bottle
Disturbing the angry worm
Hiding in a sea of pills
Such delicious numbness
Obliterating all thoughts
And dreams....almost
Tiptoe in silent prayer
As to not wake the demons
That feast upon the delicacy
Of pain and sorrow
"Now I lay me down to cry
No more feelings left to die
If I should live when I awake
Heaven help my next mistake."
Haze
Therein lies the chemicals
surpressing bits of pain
keeping all the demons out
brought on by the rain
the stupor is only temporary
and tomorrow the battle starts anew
this wasted war that has left its scars
the one constant that is true
drink it down with bitter tears
and force a smile that shows
hide behind what lies within
so no one ever knows.
Dreams
Along the quiet river
where the silent water flows
I step onto the cool grass
and slowly sink to the ground
all my thought are jumbled
my feelings all a mess
I can't think ....can't sleep...can't eat
and breathing is becoming a luxury
your everywhere I go..every sight
every sound...even on the cool breeze
I hear you name...calling me
tormented...and tortured....alone
I shut my eyes and ears but
I cannot shut my heart...where you
will always be...needing me...
wanting me...loving me
even if it is only in my dreams.
No More
The smell of you still lingers here
as I hold my pillow tight
breathing in your silence that
screams at me in the night
I don't remember how it started
or just when it faded away
I can't recall the words we said
or if it was night or day
It's strange how just the scent of you
can stir up all this pain
all i see is your twisted face
enraged all around me again
If i close my eyes and will
my mind to sleep
will you invade my dreams again
will my sorrow always run deep
I could sell my soul for a peacful
night without the thought of you
but what will happen after that
my pain will burn anew
no more...no more...no more.
Slumber
Tangled sheets
another restless night
pillows on the floor
skin shines with the terror
of the nightmare that lingers
flashing lights from the window
can't hear the sirens
I know they are here for me
not a nightmare....not anymore
look at you watching me
but you don't move
not much left of your
handsome face....anymore
I'm lying next to you
eyes wide with a stiffled scream
but that's not me...not me
I'm not the one caught
in a death scream...I laugh
someones at the door
time to go....goodbye my love
sweet dreams.
Jezebel
Jezebel, she cried last night
But no one pays attention to her kind
She's drunk and singing way off key
Poor girl is out of her mind
She staggers up the winding road
To a place that she once knew
White picket fence, patio lanterns,
Pretty flowers of every hue
The tire swing twists in the wind
Paper leis, faded, tangled in the trees
So easy to remember better days
The memories bring her to her knees
The empty bottle in one hand
She makes her way to the tree
Swinging away in that old swing
Just for a moment, she's free
Jezebel, she died last night
Searching for a way home
Poor girl died the way she lived
Sad, cold and alone.
Lilac
In my own little corner of the world
where the sky is lilac and the water ripples pink
I sigh at my own reflection,
wave my hands through the water
must dispell what I see before me
must walk away from the pain in those eyes
I sit underneath a weeping willow and
I think, how appropriate, a tree to fit my heart
the tears don't seem to stop
blurring my lilac sky into nothingness
I curl up inside myself and begin to sing
a soft and lilting lullabye....it echoes in my mind
it doesn't make me feel better
and I didn't expect it to
what had I expected...I can't even think
I walk into my little corner of the world
and never look back.
Once Was
Silence everywhere I linger
no where is there left escape
in world so full of happy sounds
it's silence where I lay my heart
There is no love that knows me
there is nothing close to feelings
no one to show me the way
always cold is where I lay my heart
The sun doesn't remember me
so long forgotten in my sight
no warmth of touch to follow
it's shadow where I lay my heart
Memories all that's left to me
the past fades from today
whispers faintly heard now
always empty is where I lay my heart
Gone is that which kept me
lost is everything that once was
sadness never leaving here
it's in your arms where I leave my heart.
Empty
I'm glad I never kissed you
I'm glad we never touched
You're another one of my pretty poisons
One that I can do without
You sleep in your own nightmare
The one that only I can see
You walk around with your mask
The one you made just for me
If I softly whisper
And call out your own name
Do you feel my breath on you
The only one that pulls you down?
Stay in your darkness
I'll keep your light
Sleep in you sorrow
I'll keep your happy thoughts
When it's your tomorrow
And you find your eyes can see
Don't get lost on your way
To love and empty me.
Saving rain
come to cleanse me
pour my soul
away from me
Happy rain
smile upon me
drops of sunshine
fill my eyes
Sad rain
full of sorrow
hiding pain
between the drops
Angry rain
screams and howls
fighting back
to help you along
Empty rain
hollow lies
nothing left
to quench within
All are welcome
necessary twist
temporary daydream
new beginnings.
Wide Asleep
Murdered memories
Sleeping at the bottom
Of a bottle
Disturbing the angry worm
Hiding in a sea of pills
Such delicious numbness
Obliterating all thoughts
And dreams....almost
Tiptoe in silent prayer
As to not wake the demons
That feast upon the delicacy
Of pain and sorrow
"Now I lay me down to cry
No more feelings left to die
If I should live when I awake
Heaven help my next mistake."
Haze
Therein lies the chemicals
surpressing bits of pain
keeping all the demons out
brought on by the rain
the stupor is only temporary
and tomorrow the battle starts anew
this wasted war that has left its scars
the one constant that is true
drink it down with bitter tears
and force a smile that shows
hide behind what lies within
so no one ever knows.
Dreams
Along the quiet river
where the silent water flows
I step onto the cool grass
and slowly sink to the ground
all my thought are jumbled
my feelings all a mess
I can't think ....can't sleep...can't eat
and breathing is becoming a luxury
your everywhere I go..every sight
every sound...even on the cool breeze
I hear you name...calling me
tormented...and tortured....alone
I shut my eyes and ears but
I cannot shut my heart...where you
will always be...needing me...
wanting me...loving me
even if it is only in my dreams.
No More
The smell of you still lingers here
as I hold my pillow tight
breathing in your silence that
screams at me in the night
I don't remember how it started
or just when it faded away
I can't recall the words we said
or if it was night or day
It's strange how just the scent of you
can stir up all this pain
all i see is your twisted face
enraged all around me again
If i close my eyes and will
my mind to sleep
will you invade my dreams again
will my sorrow always run deep
I could sell my soul for a peacful
night without the thought of you
but what will happen after that
my pain will burn anew
no more...no more...no more.
Slumber
Tangled sheets
another restless night
pillows on the floor
skin shines with the terror
of the nightmare that lingers
flashing lights from the window
can't hear the sirens
I know they are here for me
not a nightmare....not anymore
look at you watching me
but you don't move
not much left of your
handsome face....anymore
I'm lying next to you
eyes wide with a stiffled scream
but that's not me...not me
I'm not the one caught
in a death scream...I laugh
someones at the door
time to go....goodbye my love
sweet dreams.
Jezebel
Jezebel, she cried last night
But no one pays attention to her kind
She's drunk and singing way off key
Poor girl is out of her mind
She staggers up the winding road
To a place that she once knew
White picket fence, patio lanterns,
Pretty flowers of every hue
The tire swing twists in the wind
Paper leis, faded, tangled in the trees
So easy to remember better days
The memories bring her to her knees
The empty bottle in one hand
She makes her way to the tree
Swinging away in that old swing
Just for a moment, she's free
Jezebel, she died last night
Searching for a way home
Poor girl died the way she lived
Sad, cold and alone.
Lilac
In my own little corner of the world
where the sky is lilac and the water ripples pink
I sigh at my own reflection,
wave my hands through the water
must dispell what I see before me
must walk away from the pain in those eyes
I sit underneath a weeping willow and
I think, how appropriate, a tree to fit my heart
the tears don't seem to stop
blurring my lilac sky into nothingness
I curl up inside myself and begin to sing
a soft and lilting lullabye....it echoes in my mind
it doesn't make me feel better
and I didn't expect it to
what had I expected...I can't even think
I walk into my little corner of the world
and never look back.
Once Was
Silence everywhere I linger
no where is there left escape
in world so full of happy sounds
it's silence where I lay my heart
There is no love that knows me
there is nothing close to feelings
no one to show me the way
always cold is where I lay my heart
The sun doesn't remember me
so long forgotten in my sight
no warmth of touch to follow
it's shadow where I lay my heart
Memories all that's left to me
the past fades from today
whispers faintly heard now
always empty is where I lay my heart
Gone is that which kept me
lost is everything that once was
sadness never leaving here
it's in your arms where I leave my heart.
Empty
I'm glad I never kissed you
I'm glad we never touched
You're another one of my pretty poisons
One that I can do without
You sleep in your own nightmare
The one that only I can see
You walk around with your mask
The one you made just for me
If I softly whisper
And call out your own name
Do you feel my breath on you
The only one that pulls you down?
Stay in your darkness
I'll keep your light
Sleep in you sorrow
I'll keep your happy thoughts
When it's your tomorrow
And you find your eyes can see
Don't get lost on your way
To love and empty me.